on the right you can see an old and cheap pair of h&m shoes of mine. on the left you can see brand new running shoes I bought today as an early birthday present (I know, I know, it's not right, but what can I do? I wanted to stop hurting my feet). And now to the question of the day: guess what pair I used to run easily 5+ km? and which pair I had on when I run 2.5km and decided that my legs are going to fall off?
Well, I hope it means my legs work more in those new shoes because $100 (and that is with 20% discount) is a bit much for shoes I can barely run in :)

i want a bibimbap, what a surprise, hahahaha.
and i want to wash my hair or something, but it's 3am here. and i'm a bit sad, a lot happy, really alone, and i have some kind of fireworks in my brain.
sometimes things just come together and click and fit and it doesn't hurt where it used to. and when you are afraid of something for so long, you can't stay like that forever, you ought to break. not necessary in a bad way. i'm breaking in the most wonderful way.
all this sounds like some emo shit, but it's not like that. i'm pretty happy.
i hope all of you are happy too.

i got cold, hahaha. it's finally not cold in russia, and who's the one sitting at home being all green and miserable? why, that's me.
i hope everyone is well and doesn't fail in life like me :)

я простыла. дождалась потепления и расстаяла вместе со снегами, лол. надеюсь, вы совсем не такие фейлы и наслаждаетесь жизнью :3

well well well
рик санторум из э дик 0_0

rec me something to read, please.
if you see this post, rec me something to read.
anything: books or fics, i don't care.
if you like it, then rec me it.

and, if suju fandom is somewhere over there reading my blog, tell me please, where the good authors in your fandom are? or some rec community or anything of kind?

i don't get it. is it that strange to want to read some long pointless fiction about post-break up with possible happy end of getting over and letting go or forgiveness and reunion with this ex. is it that strange so no one ever writes it? and if it is, then why i read so much of that in fanfiction? and is it that strange to have all those emotional post-break up things to be really really sad but not hysterical?
i want a simple story of a girl or a boy being depressed but not hysterical (or hysterical, but not too loud). i want a quite story of being alone and of feelings left for a person who is not there for some reason (but not because they are dead, i hate those stories). i want my drama and i want it to be slow and deep and not about vampires.
i mean, it happens all the time: people do break up, and sometimes they don't even get together in the first place, and we feel things that no one wants us to feel. is it so common so no one ever writes about it?

a friend of mine got me 400g pack of marzipan from duty-free shop on her way back from paris :3
i was trying to lose some weight? screw it, nothing is better than marzipan hehehe
(but actually i am loosing weight, since all of this fat is a holiday food and it's abnormal way to gain weight, too fast and too short a period of time, it's going away all by itself.)

ira is back and i'm really really happy.
this year we got a little bit closer than the year before and i missed her a lot, even if i was away too, but still i was online for entire trip and ira was oh so offline)

i had a really weird new year celebration. in a good way! i wonder what should i do next year. i will probably have a place to stay by then or i could go somewhere abroad. well, we'll see.

oh, i probably should go back to writing reports :)


пушкарева привезла мне марципан. пушкарева из со осам :3
и я тут же слопала одну из пачек, и мне вообще плевать, даже если завтра весы покажут мне +5 кг, я люблю марципан, это самый лучший способ есть орехи :D (но вообще мне остался только один новогодний килограмм на борьбу, а потом будут все стандартные обычные килограммы :D)

ира тоже вернулась, и я сама не поняла, что я так скучала) мне хочется все бросить и поехать к ней в гости, вот настолько. (но так же мне хочется все бросить и поехать к гале и ее дивану на кухне, хахаха)

и асенька сегодня написала, что нам надо повторить такой новый год, и я думаю, да, надо, но с другой стороны я хочу еще чего-то нового, так что в следующем году, асенька, мы пойдем в бар, мне нужен бар :D без этого я не согласна. но вообще, ноль идей, что и как будет в следующем году, еще много времени)

но все же мне пора писать дальше свои убогие отчеты, я уже три часа отлыниваю от этого дела :D

да, я очень плохо перевожу свои же посты, мне лень писать одно и то же два раза :D
yes, i do suck at translating my own posts: it's boring to write the same thing twice :D

на днях моему жж исполнилось восемь лет
и тем самым оказалось, что уже более трети моей жизни я провела в интернетах
я вернулась из питера
и травмировала себя набранными килограммами
и надеюсь, что вам всем тоже было вкусно на новый год :3

it's been 8 years since i started this blog
and it makes more than a third of my life. wow. i hope no one is ever going to read my posts from 2004 or something xD it's embarassing.
i got puffy while staying at my friend's in St.Petersburg
so right now i'm desperately trying to lose some weight while my brain keeps spaming me with ideas of different types of food my brain would like me to eat kekeke
i hope all of you got to eat delicious things too
happy new year ♥
and for all people celebrating: merry christmas :)

i just think if it didn't work out, was it even real?
have we really tried? have we?
i mean is it true that if it was a real thing it would never break down.
i have no regrets and i cherish all the things. i just can't figure things like that out half the time.

dear TOKIO, thank you for creating something so beautifully matching my bag *_*

не люблю ходить по всяким едальням одна.
today was a sad day as always.

interview with Matthew Graham about this weekend’s episode.

>>It was just that, with the story I needed to tell, there was no point in overcomplicating it in terms of structure. I think what’s going to be a lot of fun about this story is that <...> complexities that comes out of the story are moral and social complexities rather than timey whimey stuff.
So there didn’t seem to be any point in telling the story backwards, or throwing structural curveballs at the audience. It’s a big enough challenge for writers to just tell a good solid story in real time. Everything is in right the right order.

... i have a question there. WHY THEN SHOULD IT BE THE DOCTOR WHO EPISODE? i like timey whimey D: but i do adore the idea of a good solid story. and I LOVE moral and social complexities (excluding the ones in the JE - i hated them, i do hate them still. but then again. it was poorly executed, and i believe if they were made better i'd love them)
and thank you very much for not believing in structural curveballs for the idea of structural curveballs :D

and he talked about working with Steven Moffat! isn't it INTERESTING? *_*_*_*_* ПЫЩ ПЫЩ ПЫЩ
*goes wild and happy* i love inside view thank you very much.

>>"My first reaction was, “Avatar, well, isn’t it going to be a bit like we’re just ripping off the big movie of the moment?” And he said, “Well, that’s your problem. Go away and don’t do that.”"

I LOVE YOU, HEARTLESS BASTARD (it's sort of my nickname for moffat. sorry) *_____*
but then he's like "wait. they should do this. and look like that. yeah, and they are that way." really. really. do whatever you want to, dear friend >.<

>> I had this Name Of The Rose vibe in my head.
i just went off and did completely crazy dance i do for every unrelated rose mention :D i'm sorry.

>>You try very hard to put in Mattisms, if you see what I mean. But you also try not to overdo the Mattisms. It’s a balance. Sometimes you get it right; sometimes you think, “Maybe I’ve overdone the Mattisms here.”
LOL, :333333

>> Steven was very clear. He said scare them. Right from the start.
распечатать и повесить в рамочку :D


Read more: Doctor Who "The Rebel Flesh” Writer Interview - SFX http://www.sfx.co.uk/2011/05/19/doctor-who-the-rebel-flesh%e2%80%9d-writer-interview/#ixzz1MoNQBYrO i'm actually pretty excited. i was so set against Fear Her in the first place (knowing that it was a replacement for a Stephen Fry episode does wake up a bitch inside me, but then... i really did enjoy it. The man is brilliant, he has nice characterisations, i loved independent rose and i loved edible ball bearings. it was sweet ans simple and everything i needed before the Doomsday.

ваня: ты же знаешь все ее слабые стороны! вот я - всегда бью в слабые стороны, чтобы тренировать их.
и паша смеется.
it's a lot like high school crush w\o high school part and w\o crush part.
просто very very nice. даже если я осталась без стипендии. :D

у меня не работает твиттер Т_Т D: мне всем хочется всего понаотвечать, а твиттер не работает D:

4x04 Escape To L.A.
JIN EPISODE IN TORCHWOOD, HEHEHE

life is pretty.
серия доктора кто на ночь вызывает у меня #mimimi ощущения.
даже если это серия про то, как все умерли. или, возможно, именно поэтому >:D

I spend my day feeling sorry for Rose and Jackie Tyler since they couldn't watch The Royal Wedding in another universe. And how are you?

поспорили с анькой, кто более милый - Гарри или Уильям. я выбрала старшего, пусть он и лысеет :D